I laughed tonight

The Loud and I take turns deciding the night's TV viewing, usually only two episodic shows or one movie. Tonight was my turn, and when he said he'd probably only be up for one show, I decided to choose one that would really "count". I wanted to laugh, I needed to laugh, I was ready to laugh. So I chose "The Goes Wrong Show" (Amazon) and wasn't disappointed. 

Then he decided he could watch some of our other favorite show, the finale episode of Season Two of "Crime Scene Kitchen" (Hulu). That too did not disappoint, providing plenty of laughs. He went to bed after that, but I've stayed up with the final thoughts of the winning team swimming in my ears:

"From this point moving forward, we're going to celebrate ourselves, no matter what happens. We're going to encourage each other, we're going to cheer for each other, and just be grateful for the moment and experience, and live in it."   Yass and Amber, Crime Scene Kitchen

I truly want to bring this fervor with me going forward. Tomorrow is chorus rehearsal night. Can I make it happen? Can I manufacture the illusion of joy where none exists, enough to perform for an audience?

I made plans with my closest friend to meet at Nowhere Bookshop (San Antonio, The Bloggess--this was the first post of hers I ever read, and I laughed until tears ran down my leg) this coming Tuesday. I decided I needed something in my life to look forward to, a Bucket List to create and an item to check off, and this fits the bill perfectly.

It's a start.